
I had nearly forgotten about the endless days and nights of rain in Manila, when the city turns gray and green and hushed. Just when I thought the city was about to crumble under the weight of urban hopelessness and neurosis, relief comes in great watery sheets from a rumbling sky, flashing its disapproval of terrestrial small-mindedness.
Sometimes I imagine that Noah really did build an ark and waited out the Storm of Storms while surrounded by animals itching to fuck but couldn't because there really was only enough food on the ship for two of each species, no one onboard was certified to conduct abortions, and Shem confiscated the condoms during the luggage check. Imagine being surrounded by that full, dizzying, hormone-crazy variety of life while forced to hunker down in your cabin for forty days and nights. The poetry you could write! The theories you could brew!
Dating in the midst of a typhoon is a hazardous affair. Last night, I waited through a heavy downpour for a guy I met online. We were, ostensibly, going to get drunk and then, presumably, have hot, hot sex. Under the crescendo of the pounding rain, protected by an umbrella that threatened to collapse at any minute, I was sending a series of increasingly annoyed txt msgs.
The night's exchange started out fine:
ME: I'll meet you at Seattle's Best. I'll take a shower. Tell me about yourself. Are you more comfortable speaking in English or Tagalog? What do you do?
HIM: Im [sic] work at a bank
(half an hour later)
HIM: San ka na? [Where are you?]
ME: I'm at home, but I'm five minutes away. Are you there? I thought you would txt to warn me.
HIM: not yet wait ka lang
(ten minutes later)
HIM: im near
ME: I'm five minutes away. I'm wearing a blue hoodie. Skinhead.
(five minutes later)
HIM: San ka na?
ME: I'm here at Seattle's Best. You should pull up in front. What's your name?
HIM: white toyota
(five minutes later)
HIM: kol me
ME: I tried your phone but couldn't get through.
He calls.
"Where are you?" he asks in Tagalog.
"Um, I'm here at Seattle's Best. Where are
you?"
"I'm at the Bliss Compound. I think. I don't know. Vizcaya. Vizcaya road. I turned right, at the highway, and then I'm here. Where do you live?"
"Um," I reply, confused. "I don't know where Vizcaya road is. We agreed to meet at Seattle's Best, didn't we?"
"I didn't know where it was, so I went straight through!" He sounds annoyed, as if it were
my fault that he couldn't find the coffee shop where we were supposed to meet.
My confusion turns to incredulity. "Okay, where are you? Do you see a church? Is there a shop nearby?"
"No. Just houses."
Incredulity turns into contempt. Jesus.
"Are you parked?" I ask.
"Yeah, but on the street."
"Okay, I'm heading your way." (I wanted to scream, "Don't go anywhere, you ass!" into the phone.)
As I walk towards the general direction of where I think he might be, I realize that I should have followed my instincts and broken the date right when he answered my questions on what he does and which language he preferred to use with, "Im work in a bank". He seems pressured to speak English with me, even though I was trying to give him an opening to speak the language he felt more comfortable using. He also appears incapable of answering questions posed directly at him.
ME: I need a landmark to find you. A nearby establishment? A gate number? Anything?
(later)
ME: What's your plate number?
(later)
HIM: i think im lost
And that's the last I hear from him. I receive that text message as I'm standing under the pouring rain, waiting for a white toyota to slow down and pull up. My feet are getting soaked. I text him a couple more messages: How are you doing? Do you need more directions? And then finally: I'm going to wait five more minutes, then I have to leave.
Which I do. On the way home, I grab four bottles of San Miguel Pale Pilsen from the corner store. I arrive at home to find my roommates watching
Annie Hall. I open a bottle, lay out my yoga mat, and salvage the remains of an incredibly frustrating evening by watching a movie that clearly points out why I should not be dating at all in the first place.
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The last time I tried to meet someone else for sex, I texted him five minutes before we were supposed to meet just on the hunch that he would cancel. I was right. "I was about to text you," he wrote. "I suddenly don't feel too good. Stomache. I'll catch you some other time."
Breaking appointments, it appears, is di rigeur in Manila. I should have clued when I got invited to be a guest performer last year for Dancing Wounded Contemporary Dance Commune in Manila, and the piece was called
Promises Are Made To Be Broken. We performers danced with audience members we found cute, scheduled coffee dates we never meant to keep, and gave them phone numbers we faked with cruel delight.
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I have a date with this guy who has spent most of his life outside the Philippines, in New York and London. A week ago, we set to meet for 12:30 tomorrow for lunch. When we agreed to an exact time and date, I swooned. You have no idea how excited I am at the prospect of keeping an appointment scheduled that far in advance.
As for what this guy's going to be like, who knows? But if we both keep our word and meet at 12:30 tomorrow, in spite of traffic, rain, and flooding, it will already be, by far, my most successful date in this city.